Today, we focused on a few things. Honestly, I have not been sleeping well so my memory of the day is kind of hazy. But. What I do remember is doing yoga, and nearly passing out due to lack of oxygen. Perhaps I should fill myself with antihistamines and the like, to be able to breath clearly. Suffocating when you are trying to focus is not a pleasant experience. After the yoga, though, we worked on isolating things again. This time, we were to experience the world around us through touching and feeling.
I didn’t feel like bending down to touch the floor, so I simply started by holding my hands within a centimeter of each other; not quite touching, but not very far apart. The student teacher noticed me, and called it Thai Chi. This intrigued me, because I’ve been messing with the energy around myself for a long time. Granted, I’m not in tune with is as much as I would like to be, but working with it in theater is kind of refreshing. The fact that it was not denoted, or that it didn’t cause people to look at me oddly (thought I’m sure I got some weird looks; the student teacher accepts my weirdness and I appreciate it a ton!), and I was able to just… manipulate the energy. Not so much manipulate it as… feel it. Follow the direction I was pulling it in. Like, I would move my hand ever so slightly until I felt resistance. Then I would go back ever so slightly and retrace the movement and go a different direction. Eventually, I just held my hands together again (but not quite touching) and moved the energy from my finger tips through each bone in my hand, until I changed pace a bit and shifted the energy to my feet and fell to the ground.
Then, we were supposed to create a story through isolation of movement. My story was simply this; a recap of my day. Waking up, Feeling my sheets and blankets; Stretching, walking around, finding my iPod, and just sitting and thinking for a while. A song that particularly makes me want to dance came on, so I then stood and began to dance with the people around me. (I say “dance with them” when in reality, it was more like, “I danced at them and if they joined in excellent! if not, move on to the next person and keep a happy attitude.”)
There were some moments before I got up to get my music where I was lost in my thoughts; trapped under a coil of darkness that I couldn’t shake. I don’t remember what quite pulled me out of that, but I realized later that that was how I lived my live quite often. I will lock myself away from the outside world, and do not realize how isolated I make myself. Until, I make the conscious decision to go out and be with people. They won’t always come to me; I have to go to them too. You get what you give. You receive what you send. It was an anomaly that I didn’t realize until I sat down to type this.
And yeah… That was my day in theater. The rest of the day was spent in haste preparing for the weekend. And now here I am, wondering what we could possibly have in store for tomorrow and
really I’m *kind* of procrastinating so I don’t have to work on other homework but I smell a pumpkin spice candle?? This has escalated quickly. In case you can’t tell this has simply turned into whatever my brain tells me to at this point; I am so brain dead, it’s sad. like the Little Mermaid. That movie is SAD. As well as Oliver in Company… a
anyways none of that last paragraph was relevant so I suppose I’ll go work on my homework now and pretend that someone reads my blog
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